the night before…

Our lives are going to change tomorrow. There’s no way around it. We’re checking into the hospital at 5:30 tomorrow morning and the induction begins at 6:30. I have no idea how quickly things will progress or how long they expect it to take. It could be a long day or a short day. I hope to be able to keep everyone informed via Twitter (if you don’t already follow me, just click on the Twitter button on the right sidebar) and do a couple of blog posts as the day moves along.

More than anything, we’re praying for a safe delivery for Baby Boy and for me. I’m praying that Todd will be calm and comfortable and that any anxiety he is experiencing will melt away. I’m praying for both sets of grandparents that they will be the rocks we need them to be and the perfect examples of unconditional love for our precious son. I’m praying that our son will arrive perfectly and healthy and that he will grow up to love Jesus. We pray that he will have great relationships with our parents and our friends and that he will constantly be surrounded by love.

This is probably the most sentimental pregnancy post I’ve written, right?

I’m sitting here trying to come up with an idea in my mind of what exactly is about to happen, but I honestly have no idea. I know a general rundown of tomorrow, but I don’t know what the pain will feel like. I don’t know how the epidural will feel. I don’t know much. I don’t know if this boy will be too big for me to push out and if I’ll end up with a c-section. But while I don’t know the answers, I don’t care. I can’t tell you what’s about to happen, but I can tell you what it feels like to look back.

When I got married a year ago I got really emotional because I felt like I really had to grow up. There was a huge mix of happiness and sadness that came with that. Today, as I sit and think about my life up to this point, a few things come to mind:

  • What did my parents feel like the day they drove to the hospital to have me? Were they scared? Excited?
  • Our little house in Baton Rouge. I spent so many great years there. My dad taught me to ride a bike there. Santa Claus brought us our dachshund puppy there. Singing songs with my mom.
  • The day my brother was born. I was a jealous older sister, but I can’t imagine my life without my perfect sibling– the person who will be there with me to the end.
  • The day I graduated from high school and moved back to Louisiana by myself. I was so excited, but still so sad to leave my family.
  • The day I graduated from college and the summer I spent backpacking through Europe with one of my besties. I can’t imagine what my parents felt like sending me over there by myself for so long with just a backpack and a train ticket.
  • The day I graduated from graduate school and started my first real job. I was supposed to be “grown up” then, but I totally wasn’t.
  • The day I met Todd. I knew immediately that I was meeting my husband the father of my future children and now here we are… (excuse me, I’m crying while I type this…)
  • I’m thinking now about our parents and how grateful I am to them for all they’ve given us and taught us about love. I hope with all of heart that we can make the impact on this child that they’ve made on us.
  • And finally, just as my Dad (Poppie) started praying on the day I was born for my future husband, I’m praying for another family. Another family somewhere who will raise a young woman and she will become Baby Boy’s wife and the mother of his children.

I’m sorry to have gotten so sentimental, but I know that I will have to really grow up tomorrow. I will be completely responsible for another life (with Todd’s amazing help, of course) and I don’t want these nostalgic feelings to disappear because of stress and busy-ness.

I appreciate all of you so much. My real life friends, my family, my fantastic blog friends (that I can’t even imagine not knowing now), and anyone who just stops by to check in. Thank you for cheering us on. I’ll keep you all posted!

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  1. I enjoy your blog so much and I loved your “night before” post. I am praying everything goes well for your family today.

  2. Seaside Prep says:

    Been thinking about you, your husband and your precious baby all day! Wishing you the best of luck and praying for a safe delivery and healthy family! :)

  3. I’ve been reading your blog for months now! Can’t wait to meet the little one! Praying for a safe delivery.

  4. Best of luck … you’ll make a great mommy!!!

  5. Beautiful words of a soon to be momma!

    Praying for you, baby and your husband!!! You will be a terrific mother!!

    darcis last blog post: B-A-N-A-N-A-S

  6. Just beautiful.
    You are just fabulous, Erin.

    Please know we are think of and praying for you, Todd and baby!

    Just saw you update-hold on sweetie, it’s worth the wait!

  7. Such a beautiful post. Sending prayers your way for a wonderful delivery. Can’t wait to see the (big) little guy!

  8. Praying for you.

  9. Praying for you and Baby Boy! I am tearing up reading this and can completely relate to all those sentimental thoughts flooding up on a momentous occasion such as this!

  10. Congratulations Erin!Hudson is beautiful :)I’ m so happy that everything went ok.You and Todd must be very proud to have such a cute boy!

  11. Congratulations on the birth of your son!

  12. Melissa says:

    Congratulations! I just saw the name, that is my son’s name! He will be a year old at the end of the month. I love it that it’s unusual. I hope it doesn’t gain any popularity.

  13. Erin, congratulations to you and Todd! I know y’all are so excited! I absolutely LOVE the name, as I’m sure your dad does! A big hug to you all and lots of love!

  14. Hudson is adorable and I love the name you guys picked out!!! Congratulations and lots of love to all of you!

  15. YAYAYAYYAYAY. Happy Birthday Hudson!!! I cried this morning when I got your call!! I love you so much and am so so so excited for you. Once life settles down I am treating you to a message! You deserve it!

  16. HAPPY HUDSON DAY!

    Congratulations, he is so perfect! Sending your family big prayers and well wishes.

    big xoxo,
    Lulu

  17. Ronda Blackburn says:

    Never commented before….but just want to same congrats!!! Such a BIG boy….love the name….spoil him rotten before it’s too late!!! Hugs and kisses to mom and baby!!!

  18. I am so happy for you! I’m so glad I am following you on twitter. I l-o-v-e the name so, so much. Glad you are both well and happy! Congrats!

  19. Wacie's Way says:

    CONGRATULATIONS!!!! Reading your post took me back to the night before we were to check into the hospital at 6:30 am. My daughter was breached so we had a scheduled C-section. Gosh, I can’t believe that’s been almost 13 years ago – AAGGHH!!!! Enjoy the moments and take lots of pictures!!! The best of everything to you and your new little family!!

  20. You had me teary too, BEB! Congratulations to your beautiful family of three!!

  21. A beautiful post filled with emotion. You’ll be a great mother!

    The epidural isn’t bad. I’ve had one before. You’re going to be embarking on the journey of your life tomorrow(technically today since I didn’t see this post)! Savor every moment.

  22. This is such a beautiful post. Even though I am far away from this stage in life, I can imagine it nearing soon, and can completely imagine feeling this way too. So many unknowns, and really feeling like a grown-up. Just from reading your blog, I feel that you will be a wonderful, thoughtful, and fun mom for any child to have. Best wishes!!!

    Life Abroads last blog post: Dutch Food Meme

  23. What a beautiful post Erin! I am SO excited that Hudson has arrived and you are both doing well. He is SO incredibly blessed to have been born to such a beautiful, God loving mother and father. I hope you have a wonderful next few days and that no one has any trouble adjusting! Keep us updated and CONGRATULATIONS to the Carrol family!!

  24. Kaiti McCormack says:

    Hi Erin! I’m Todd’s cousin Kaiti…well your cousin too :) I just wanted to say congrats! I know that down here in Missouri we have been anxiously awaiting that day. We are all praying for you. Oh! I almost forgot to tell you that my mom can’t wait to see the pictures :) She would kill me if I forgot that. But I hope all is well! Let us know how everything goes!

  25. Oh how sweet! What a lovely and touching post. Congrats on the birth of your little boy!

    d.a.r.s last blog post: Happily Ever After

  26. Wow. Sitting here @ my desk with tears in my eyes. I absolutely love that your dad prayed for your future husband. Where would we be without our parents/guardians? Wishing you all the best as you start navigating the waters of new motherhood.

  27. Getting excited about reading more. Great article.Really getting excited about read more. Continue writing.

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