I’m writing this today because I’m big into commitments. And I committed to 31 Days of Back to Basics Blogging. So I’m just going to keep blogging about our days.
And some days are just ugly.
All day I’ve felt like my spirit was under attack. From the moment I woke up this morning, our day was in a tail spin.
We had a real estate agent schedule a home showing, but a specific time wasn’t narrowed down. We were frantically cleaning this morning and trying to get everyone dressed and out the door.
The chaos of the morning made me late and I had to miss my community Bible study, which is one of the things I look most forward to every week. I love the fellowship and I love learning from the leaders and all the other ladies. I was really looking forward to diving more into Proverbs and learning more about humility.
But our plans changed.
And I snapped at Todd. And I unloaded on my mom, who is very often the person who gets to hear about what’s annoying me. I lost my patience with Hudson when he insisted on wearing what he wore yesterday.
I had my first big breakdown over the house selling process and what a burden and imposition it can be on all of us at times.
It’s a rainy, gloomy day. The house showing did eventually happen. I ended up being about 10 minutes late to pick up Hudson, because in the crazy parts of the morning I neglected to check my daily calendar. I thought he had lunch at school today, and he didn’t.
Needless to say, it was an ugly day. I don’t have any photos. I don’t have any funny stories.
But when I was driving home from getting Hudson from school, I just prayed out loud. I prayed that God would protect our family and guard my heart and just turn this day around. To remove the black cloud from over my head. To help me to slow down and gain some perspective. And maybe even find some joy.
And immediately I thought of James 1. I have read the book of James so many times, and now those verses are just in me. They’re there when I need to slow down and gain perspective. They’re hiding in my heart.
Consider it all joy, my brethren, when you encounter various trials, knowing that the testing of your faith produces endurance. And let endurance have its perfect result, so that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.
So maybe I could just consider today’s trial a joy. Maybe?
It was a rotten day. But I can consider it joy. Because I know that my faith was absolutely tested today. And it was a reminder to speak kindly, be patient, and remember that God’s plan is perfect.
I don’t have all the answers and I know we all have days where we want to scream, “What the heck?!”
But after a few hours, and a good phone call from a Soul Sister, I’m considering it joy. I’m learning.
*This is Day 4 of 31 Days of Back to Basics Blogging